Welcome Change

When changes occur in your life and you feel uncertain of what the future holds, a meditation on the theme

of change can generate a positive outlook. Meditate on the life cycle of a butterfly-----through the stages of

caterpillar and cocoon----to strengthen your resolve about embracing change in your life.

(this works really great if you can have a picture of a butterfly to concentrate on or look at all day while you work--place it on your desk somewhere u can see it---the card has one on the other side of the written text that I put above)

Thanks Gayle: I've been taking alot of pot shots lately from his sons and daughter-inlaw now too. So I decided it was time to gird up my loins again and become a SISTER FIBRO WARRIOR once again.

We are a fearless bunch who can kick butt when were revved up. Okay I need about 7 or 8 of you to give me that running push--lol--maybe I should ask for 10-12? higher? ok 18-21? Am I at a good number yet? oh, you'll get back to me after the poll closes on the matter. When will that be? November? What if I don't have time to wait till then? Go elsewhere....I should have thought you'd say that since this is a democracy.(I'm not too good at writing analogs for humor as you can see)

we r caught in a hard place-no matter what we have to have money to leave the state. I get 713 and owe 455 on loan if we leave state, plus 100 for jaws insulin i wrote a post-dated check for.rent here is 475 if we stay this month.doesnt stretch...then utilities and phone and food.we will b looking in boise this wk at a 2 bdrm 1 ba mobile hm. It's far enuf away that I don't think russ will go there and I'm not telling him where I'm going to be anyways. the rent is only 395-saves 80 on the rent. It also has a fenced yard and says call on pets--now I just have jaws my chiuchau. Hopefully, when we get there we can get to health and welfare and get food stamps right away.

really am tired now

gonna close till tomorro

pamel

What a horrendous day. I told you Russ said he didn't want anything the other day really--he told me to just sell it and keep the money. Oh no!!! I imagined all that-even with witnesses. I've been called rude crude names all day and into the early morning hrs. of this day--by text of course.I have been hasselled and told that they will be here on Friday for ALL RUSS' THINGS PERIOD! I TOLD THEM TO WAIT UNTIL SUNDAY--BUT THAT'S NOT AN OPTION THEY TELL ME-IT WILL BE FRIDAY AND ONLY FRIDAY AND THEY WILL COME WHETHER I AM HERE OR NOT AND THEY WILL GET HIS STUFF ANYWAYS! I WAS BELITTLED AND CURSED AT EVEN THREATENED AT ONE POINT. It does not matter that when he left -before he O.D. that he told me I could have everything in the house-he didn't want any of it, he had what he wanted in his truck. Then yesterday he told me most of the stuff was old and falling apart I may as well sell it and keep the money--he really didn't want anything. I tried to interest him in his recliner--he wouldn't even answer me on that--he just left after saying sell the stuff. Now he wants stuff. It took me texting btwn three ppl on his behalf to finally get him to send a list. So it ends up he wants the bedroom set (which I didn't want and was his before we met), and the entire living room set including the big tv and stand(I told him I couldn't haul the big tv already and was taking the tiny one so my grand-daughter could watch her dvds)....It's just I've got to get two drawers of my clothes out of his dresser and then empty the t.v. stand of all my dvds.

I wanted them to wait till Sunday since I've been in this Fibro Flair it will take me longer to get things done but they won't they are so darn hateful. I'm trying to not make myself worse by pushing too hard they just don't care how sick they make me. Now the wife of Scott is texting me and saying that I was putting on an act when Russ was at the hospital. She never came there except after he woke up--she doesn't realize what I was going thru with my dizziness and pain as I stood by his side. I don't even want to get started on her. Her husband was threatening me all nite that if I didn't do this tomorro they would gain entrance with a cop and do it anyways. I'm so afraid they will steal me blind-as I do have some nice pieces of jewelry my mom left me that have some value.

My fibro is at a 13/14 and I can't sleep I need to get some things cleared out and ready cuz they won't tell me when. I told them we would b gone until after 2 pm==so they should come after 2 pm. Never got a response.

pamel